Do I want to go
Do I want to go to class today? It’s almost noon and I missed my first class but I still have time to make it to Social psychology. I don't know why I put myself through this process Monday through Thursday. The simple answer is yes, of course Chris, get your little butt in class. You pay for it! My fellow classmates seem to be able to make it to each class with no problems, no internal debates. I think my problems stem from childhood (spoken like a true psychologist). Maybe my current absenteeism is an attempt to regain those days in my youth when staying home from school was great process that usually began the night before. Whether I was sick or not, it was always a production which included, a somber facial expression, a dry violent cough that would turn my face red and a sudden lack of interest in what was for dinner. Then, early the next morning, I drag my feet into the kitchen to argue my case. The best feeling is the moment your get back into bed knowing that this is going to be the rest of your day. Before leaving for work my mother would bring me something to drink and maybe some toast which I would turn down of course knowing all to well the best way to win a mother’s pity is to refuse food. And more importantly I had to save my appetite for the smorgasbord of snacks and frozen foods that I would indulge in later. I have such fond memories of those days. Sometimes day-time television (I loved to watch bionic woman and Cooking with Graham Kerr) will send a memory or feeling rushing in, encouraging me to call in from work and climb back into bed. But sadly, as an adult it is impossible to regain those feelings. The guilt, the torment of extra work or having to catch up always seem to sour the beauty of taking a sick day. Maybe my frequent debates about going to class are an unconscious attempt trying to get back the carefree feeling of skipping school. It’s 12:20 now—guess I don’t have time to get to class today
Posted by on 09/17 at 12:22 PM
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